Everyone has trouble with motivation from time to time. Maybe there’s a project you aren’t particularly interested in or a party you’re reluctant to go to. But for those of us with mental illnesses, such as anxiety or depression, motivation can be a big issue. Every time you do something, it is because you have a motive, a reason. You have been motivated.
I don’t really have a point to make here, so take what you will away from this. It’s simply a story and how a pleasant and unexpected conversation planted some questions in my head.
I walked into that waiting room looking like a hot mess. I’m not good with makeup, I never have been, but this week I decided that some eyeliner and lipstick would be fun. Turns out, my eyeliner prefers the underside of my eye to my upper lashline and the lip colour I chose looked pinker than I expected, making me look like a prepubescent girl who got ahold of her mother’s makeup drawer. Also, I had done very little in the way of schoolwork that morning. All in all, I wasn’t exactly looking or feeling my best that Thursday afternoon.
Trigger Warning: Mention of suicide
You’ve probably heard about bipolar disorder, but do you really know what it is? I can guess that you have heard about mania, the periods of high mood and sometimes reckless behaviour people go through and that get all the attention, but were you aware that more of the time those diagnosed with a bipolar disorder are baseline (“normal”) or depressed? Did you know that depression is by far the more destructive of the two “poles”? Read More »
Panic attacks can be scary. Most people experience at least one attack in their life, and approximately 3% of the population suffers from a panic disorder. They can be mistaken for life-threatening physical afflictions, such as heart or asthma attacks. In this case, an attack could even lead to an to ER visit and a lot of confusion. Read More »
I have so many thoughts about this and not enough words in the English language to glue them together cohesively so this may be a bit of a ramble. Anyways, support.
On Monday, I went into my counselling appointment thinking I didn’t have much to talk about. There was Christmas and New Year’s, but nothing really eventful happened regarding my mental health or my personal life. Or so I thought.Read More »
This blog is a little project I started to get myself into the habit of regularly completing time-sensitive tasks. As written in my About Me page (and the tagline of the blog), I have bipolar II disorder, which prevents me from being as productive as I could be (read “prevents me from getting out of bed until noon 90% of the time”).Read More »